It's my birthday week!!

If you hang out with me at all expect to hear this a lot this week. I can't help it. I like my birthday.
I am so excited that my old roommie from Chico is coming to visit.
We are going to have so much fun.
Plus I get to spend time with all my wonderful friends here.
On Thursday I am going to do 25 things that make me happy on my last day at 25.
Hopefully I will compile a list of things I want to accomplish in the year. I'm sure the list will mostly consist of laughing a lot.
I'm pretty happy with how things have been going for me lately. I am having a lot of fun while trying to figure out what I want for my future.

My New Obsession

It's official. I'm obsessed. I've heard other people raving about this woman and thought I'd give it a chance. It also helped that the cd only cost $9.99 on itunes. I have a problem spending much more on music. Unless it is No Doubt related of course. Her voice is amazing. The song writing feels like she is speaking to me directly. Like she knows what I've been through and she is here to help me through it. I know in reality it is all just generic words that are there because everyone's been through heartbreak but at this particular time it's what I need. I need to feel like I am not the only one in this sea of pain and frustration and questioning.
I know that I am not alone. I have some of the greatest friends a girl could ask for. And in reality I need to focus my attention on school. But it is nice to have music to relate to.

I'm Trying

I'm trying to:

*Stay positive
*Be happy
*Try new things
*Give second chances
*Forget
*Learn
*Laugh
*Love

Some days it comes easier than others. I feel all this pressure to be the perfect employee, friend, roommate, study partner, student. The pressure is getting to me. I feel like I have my hand in to many buckets (for lack of a better description). I feel like am drowning and not doing any of these things well. I am failing.
I know that this might not actually be true. But that is how I am feeling today. I am so scared of failing. I know that everyone is. Regardless of what they are failing at.
I guess all I can do is just keep swimming...to reference Finding Nemo. What other option do I have? I may not be perfect. Of course I make mistakes but I need to learn to accept those mistakes and learn from them and move on. I need to learn to not beat myself up when these mistakes happen.
At least I have goals and I am working towards them.

Oh March I love you

Not just because it's my birthday month. I think I'm always going to be excited about my birthday no matter how old I get. I love how my friends and family gather around me and show me they care with just their presence. But anyway I love March because I love spring. 
You can't see spring as much in my town as you could when I was in chico. But I still know it's there. Flowers are blooming. The skies are blue. You can't ask for much more. 
And I gotta say the month is starting off right. Besides me almost amputating my toe off this morning (not really I stepped on a huge piece of slivered plastic and it cut it bad but it's nothing a princess bandaid won't heal). Tessa just informed me she is going to make the long trip down to help celebrate my birthday with me. This will be the longest we've been together since Chico. I'm beyond excited. I miss that girl. 
March will be pretty busy though. Finals are quickly approaching but I have a game plan. 
Life is good :)