Kylee Grace

Kylee Grace,
My perfect niece. You are your mothers angel. I will never forget the day you came into the world. It was also the day that you left it. Never even getting a chance at life. You were so small and fragile. Like nothing I can describe. You being born changed my sister and myself forever. You were a blessing. You had the Kowalyk nose and Lissa's crazy spider toes. Unfortunately there are days when you slip my mind; but not often. I know that you are in heaven with grandpa.
It's been a year and your mom has changed so much. You inspired her to work towards her degree. She stopped being selfish and realized the importance of family. I am so extremely proud of the woman she is becoming. I do believe it is all because of you.
You were also the one who made me realize that I needed to get away from Todd. The fact that one of my friends, that I hadn't seen in years, could come visit me while I was at the hospital with sister as i was waiting for you and Todd didn't even call says it all. The things he said will never be forgiven. He always preached about how important family was but when it came down to it he was only talking about his family.
Even though you only spent a short time with us I want you to know how much I love you. I was the first one to hold you. You fit in the palm of my hand. Sister was strong and did a brave thing that day. Everything happens for a reason but I still am having a hard time finding the reason for this.
Happy birthday <3 your Aunt Theresa

Music Makes My World Go Round

I'm one of those people who has to be surrounded by music. Well it's not a necessity but definitely a huge part of my life. No matter the mood I am in there is always a song or an artist that describes exactly what I am going through and can articulate the emotions in a why that I can't. I am happy to say that I not one of those people who limits themselves to one genre. That to me is like only tasting one type of food. However saying that screamo music is like the food version of peas. It's just not for me. But every now and then when I have a bit of aggression it does just the trick.
So here fits in No Doubt. You knew it was coming. No matter how many different bands and singers I listen to none of them are as all encompassing as No Doubt. I blame Gwen Stefani although I think Tony Kanal has a little bit more to do with it. He is the support after all. Like a good bra Tony comes in and supports where it is needed to make sure the songs are in there full glory. I mean come on it takes a lot of balls to step up to the plate and help your ex-girlfriend write a song about how distraught she is over you breaking her heart. And even more so to stick by her side when she starts new relationships and wants to branch off in a different direction. I have so much respect for him. But I digress.
When I am listening to music I go to a different place. I focus on the words and place myself in the spot of the performer. It feels like nothing else I can describe and I love it.

Now I bet your life is a little more complete now that you know that about me :)

Sick Again Ahh

127/365 - Tissue Explosion
Originally uploaded by VTChEwbecca

This week consisted of me being sick yet again. I was sick less than three weeks ago. It started with an annoying tickle in my throat and me trying to convince myself that it was just allergies. But at work the next day feeling like death I knew it was more. Sunday night as I was getting things together for work the next day I realized that I tired just bringing in the laundry there was no way I would make it 7 hours on my feet. So I called in Monday morning. Lucky enough for me I had Tuesday and today off too. I don't know what I would have done without those days. Today I was able to pry myself out of bed for the first time other than forcing myself to make dinner. I know that when I go back to work tomorrow I may face a wrath of getting written up for taking too many sick days in a rolling 12 months but I don't care. It is time to look for a new job anyway.